Pity

 I am very offended about so many of My Family feeling sorry for the abusive, cheating,   asshole I have taken care of for the last 22 years but then I admit to myself that Pity is why I have kept him for so long.  Garment put is his specialty.  Almost an idiot savant in that.  He is the stupidest person I have ever met yet he is very skilled at making people feel sorry for him.  

Still.  I am offended.  Hugely offended.  Jeanette is right,  family take up for each other right or wrong and a big thing here is that I am not wrong.  The only thing I am wrong about is not getting rid of him sooner.  And there i sm dead wrong.  That pity thing.  That can't take care of himself thing.  Except a huge part of his helplessness is actually laziness.  After screaming at me about how he is capable of taking care of himself he asked me where to go to get a social security card.  I reminded him of what he said and told him to Google it himself.  Then I find out that he then went and asked Jess where to go.  Ok, the funny part is that she told him wrong,  told him to go to the DMV. Then he started asking me over and over how to contact the vet.  I said that his name was Dobesh and to look it up himself.  He kept asking and then texted me to please at least tell him how to spell Dobesh. It is spelled exactly as it sounds.  LAZY. Always. 

Back to when I SHOULD HAVE made him leave or left him.  It's a long list spanning the whole 22 years so buckle up.  

One more thing first.  Two of his adult champions have begged me Many Times to get rid of him.  Jessalynn told me daily for years that I was a bad person for letting him stay but then 2 years ago told me that the way I treat him is DISGUSTING and we didn't speak for a year.  That relationship will never be the same and it was pretty amazing before.  It was a year before I was told that Jessalynn said that because Jeremy had been whining to her and

M Brandon about how mean I am and they are it up EVEN WITH WHAT JESSALYNN KNEW ABOUT HIM.  She was worried about Brandon meeting Jeremy and not getting along but something amazing happened.  Jeremy really liked Brandon and was always on his best behavior whenever they were around for years.  We all loved it when they came to visit because it gave us a break from the yelling and abuse.  And I guess Jessalynn developed altzheimers about who he really is. 

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